Writing As Prayer
Writing is prayer. It is how I form a dialogue with God; a way in which I connect with him, commune with him, speak to him, listen for his thoughts, his voice, his guidance, and his wisdom. Writing enables me to be still, to receive his presence, and join him in the wonderful state of transcendence. Whenever I seek him with my whole heart, I find him. He rains down on me, falling at the tip of my pen.
I wrote this letter a few weeks ago and I feel led to share it. It is a prayer, and honest depiction of how I engage my relationship with God. Mostly I keep my prayers private, but something in me is waking up, asking for bold honesty and transparency. Something in me is asking that I honor and speak from my deepest conviction; the place inside me where courage carries my belief.
To My Heavenly Father,
Heal me. Heal me of all you are willing to heal me of. Heal me in the ways it’s your will to. Help me navigate that which you do not take away and that which I do not understand. I want to trust deeper, not in others, but in you. I want to trust in your character, your promises, your goodness, and your unchanging nature. I want to see you more in the day to day; in the simple and quiet. Teach me to be content in the subtle ways in which you speak, transcending my dependence upon intensity, my need for signs and wonders, and an even deeper desire for manifestations of the spirit. Show me how to connect with you in the mundane; where your presence makes boredom into awe. I want to fill my lungs with your breath; asking that it be a portal to the divine and eternal; the path I walk down on my way to you. I want life beyond life; true life, not half life or death. I want moments of stillness; when Heaven comes down on me and I hear your thoughts. I want to prepare myself as an offering of worship; my body a house of purity for your dwelling, where I can love myself because you first loved me. Meet me in the unseen, where your presence is most pronounced. Comfort those thoughts that disturb me and be a song to my heart. Be with me always. Show me how to be, how to love, how to love myself, and how to love others.
With Love,
Natalia
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